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The art of gardening and the science of life.

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On the Nature of Forgiveness

To begin – a few explanations will help define this most important aspect of human life.
Buddhists define forgiveness as an act of genuine love; an act that requires immense courage and strength but one that, ultimately, is the only path to peace. To forgive harm does not mean we condone the harm or that we make ourselves feel better by retaliating. Instead, we commit to disallow the harm from happening to us in the future, to accept that all beings are capable of harm and kindness and that all have done both, and will do both, and to allow ourselves to let go of the harm in order to proceed with life. The path to forgiving someone for the harm they have done may include multiple levels or stages – grief and deep sorrow, confusion, anger, an immense sense of betrayal, and eventual acceptance. One or a combination of these emotions will be experienced during healing, and the entire process may take a short time or years of dedicated, intentional work. In Buddhism, forgiveness meditation performed daily during the time of healing brings both immediate and long-term benefits. Insight meditation will be of benefit, but should be performed after the initial pain has subsided and thinking is clearer.
In Islam, responsibility is a crucial component of forgiveness. Accepting responsibility for ones’ actions is directly correlated with the intellect of the actor. For example, young children are not held responsible for their actions until they are old enough – until their intellect is developed enough – to understand the consequences of their actions. If an adult has limited intellect, he/she is not held completely responsible for actions that may cause harm. A fully functioning adult is responsible for his/her actions, intention(s) motivating the action, and its consequences. Islamic teachings state that humans need two types of forgiveness – from God and from other humans – and admonishes the guilty to work and pray for both.
In Christianity, Jesus’ teachings on forgiveness have received multiple interpretations over many centuries. Ultimately, however, we are taught that God’s forgiveness is inclusive and unending if we actively work towards forgiveness. This work usually requires confessing ones’ sins and praying for forgiveness. Unfortunately, modern interpretation of these teachings does not emphasize making reparations or sincere attempts to make amends to the harmed individual. God’s forgiveness is said to be the most important – sometimes the only – requirement needed to be cleansed of a harmful act. Again, this is a contemporary interpretation of Jesus’ teachings, and one that I find not in keeping with the historic reasons behind his teachings.

As with most any adult I know, I have a long history with learning to forgive. From childhood through adulthood, I have spent the majority of my life learning how to forgive.  At times forgiving was easy; I would keep in mind a favorite expression of my father’s – Consider the Source. This kept many wounds from developing into major, destructive injuries. At other times, however, I was presented with or observed a struggle that continued for years. I have questioned more than once how humankind can forgive God – after all, if we approach the concept of God to be correct as taught, doesn’t He have a responsibility to His creation? If so, from my point of view He has abdicated His responsibility with each sincere but ignored prayer.

Forgiving someone we love who has harmed us is even more difficult – kin, friend, lover – the relationship is secondary to the act of harm.  The fact that we assume love to be reciprocated in action sets us up for further hurt when we are betrayed.  Because even though someone we have trusted has harmed us or those we love, our love for that person remains intact.  It may be diminished, it may be reticent, but it remains.

And therein lies the rub.  This aspect of forgiveness is rarely addressed – when people we love abuse us or someone close to us, forgiving is even more difficult because we continue to love them.  And just because we love someone, we assume that love is reciprocated. When we discover it is not, and face the deep harm that has occurred over a lifetime, we are left with rubble. What do we do then? It is not a matter of rebuilding a life; rather, it becomes a process of building a new life. If this happens to you, what do you do? Remove the harm from your life. In whatever form that harm has taken and by whatever safe and healthy means available, remove the harm permanently. And then look closely at all you have, not what you have lost. Look closely at those you love and who reciprocate your love. Look closely at your strength, your honesty, your integrity, and your gifts. Look closely, and acknowledge them. Honor all you have been given. But most important – forgive. By whatever means is easiest, kindest, and most effective for you, forgive. Give those who have caused such harm nothing more of your life.  As Rabbi Hillel said, “That which is hateful to you, do not do to another. That is the whole Law. The rest is commentary. Now go and learn it.”
All I can add is this – be kind, enjoy each day, and live your life in love.



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The year in review: defiant love.

This rough-and-tumble, donnybrook of a year has reached its end!  And not a moment too soon for most of us.  The year 2016 will be remembered by many as one of hostility, aggression, the ascendancy of us-against-them mentality, the triumph of bully tactics, flagrant dishonesty, and as floating a boatload of gossip.  The general attitude has been mean-spirited and vindictive.  And, as mentioned above, one of deep and pervasive dishonesty.  No wonder we’re tired.

So, how do we proceed?  The year ahead looks grim for most of our troubled planet.  As we move away from what will most likely be the hottest year on record world-wide, from a year immersed in the horrendous suffering of immigrants and war victims, and a year of idiotic, narcissistic denial of our planet’s countless problems, we have a decision to make.  A decision of such importance that, if made incorrectly, will lead to suffering on a scale beyond any world war.  A decision with such momentum that once started it won’t stop.  A decision that will affect everyone and everything around us.

We can choose to be angry, vindictive, and to lash out at those who we believe support the mean-spirited direction of our world.  After all, didn’t ‘they’ get us here?  We can choose to respond in kind with lies, gossip, and threats – after all, isn’t that how ‘they’ act?  We can choose to shut down compassion and replace it with indifference.  We can choose to wall ourselves off from the rest of humanity and let ‘them’ deal with their own problems.  Who cares if they are victims of war?  Who cares if they are fleeing violence, corruption, and hopelessness?   This is our country!

Or, we can choose to be kind.  We can respond to insults with compassion, to lies with honesty, to violence with amity, and to environmental harm with hard work and peaceful demonstration.  We can walk away from gossip and, instead, spread truth.  We can welcome the immigrant with open arms and a good job.  We can hold ourselves to a higher standard than we see practiced by our imminent leaders.

The choice is pretty simple, really.  We can treat our world and all beings as we want to be treated, or we can take the easy way out.

Be a rebel, be defiant: choose love.

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A serving of gratitude.

This Thanksgiving will be a small gathering around our table.  Small, but deeply loved, appreciated, and treasured.  And profound gratitude will be present.

Gratitude for the people we love and who reciprocate our love.  Gratitude for kindness, support, understanding, and friendship.  Gratitude for wisdom acquired and hard lessons learned with grace and acceptance.  Gratitude for the bottomless comfort of trusting those who sit with us.  Gratitude for the realization that no matter how enormous the loss, how vast the betrayal, and how intense the pain, each moment becomes a bit brighter.  Gratitude for the knowledge that each minute is new and every hour offers peace to all who welcome it.

I wish you a joyful Thanksgiving filled with love, hope, and friendship.  And great food!